So as I mentioned earlier to sum it up I liked my best friend, he liked me and I had issues talking about my feelings so it never got anywhere and (I talked to him once about it and he was shocked but my inability to change from apathetic got me nowhere) when I finally managed to talk to him again he thought my feelings were gone and he said that he doesn't feel the same way anymore and is uncertain that he can.
Things got complicated when I tried to be as open as I could about how I felt and then there was this other girl that was doing the same, and on his page I kept seeing her comments and then one day I talked to him about it and he said he didn't want to say anything to hurt me but to answer my question, yes he does like her.
It hurt me, but I had to accept it, he has moved on, I messed things up.
Another weird thing happened, the girls friend sent me a message saying how he doesn't like me the way he likes the other girl and that I should give up and blah blah being mean. He got very pissed off, and said that if the other girl was the one that had sent the message he would have stopped being in contact with her cause I'm more important.
In the end the girl had to apologize to me and I sent her a message back basically saying that he's my best friend and I care and that I don't want more than a friendship now, he likes her (the friend) and that she better not screw up and make him even the slightest unhappy. The girl said ok.
Now I feel so bad inside cause I want him but I know things will never be like that before, how do I forget these feelings I have for him? I told him that the only way I know I can is to stay away from him like not talk so much cause talking with him will just make it worse, he will keep saying things that make me want him even more. He said he hopes I don't leave him soon but he'll understand if I feel I have no choice, I told him I wouldn't, things would be so dull and boring without him around.
I don't want to stop talking to him, but I want those feelings gone, and I don't want to see anyone else, I don't like the idea of dating. Have my cake and eat it too hah. He's the first guy I've liked in the past 2 years and I doubt it would be easy to just find someone else.
Any suggestions? and btw it's a long distance friendship but we talk daily!
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